kb

being alone for so much of what feels like the year even though I'm not really alone I'm actually surrounded on all sides by people all the time, but it's given me another look at what I value and what I feel and what I care about on a day to day basis.

my favorite piece of this whole experience has been the continuation of my friendship with kate. it doesn't feel forced or fake or placed in some unnatural way. she'll text me a song. I'll respond with 5 pictures of sunrises and she sees each one individually, but never gives a blanket reply. I could text her 10 times over and not feel guilty. she doesn't need to look at my texts right away or respond in the next 24 hours because our lives exist just fine knowing we're thinking of each other in our parallel universes and we see the same moon and sun and that's ok for now! I've been nervous we wouldn't be as strong of friends with distance and differences in day to days but it makes it better in little ways. I can't imagine doing her everyday, mostly because it looks like she does it so flawlessly, but also because it's simply and most complicatedly and unequivocally kate's life.

she sees me and I see her! there are little things left to want in the company of such accepting love. we know we want it from others. Not just me, or you, because of course I love you, you're you, and you'll say the same for me. im sure we'll expand our circle of love as life goes on but if I know her forever or just one more day I know I have found a friend- this feels like too slight a word- but of a lifetime.