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im not looking back and wishing for something else. how crazy to think we're supposed to have these independent and individually romantic lives- professionally and personally developed and curated, strong and standalone, equal and above everyone else and making sure it aligns on a spreadsheet. I don't want that. And that makes me feel so lazy and that I under-appreciate the place I could be, the statement I could make! We're talking in hypotheticals, of course, but I really just want someone next to me. I want to have a person that makes me swerve on the road (not that big of a swerve) because I am laughing so hard and I closed my eyes a bit too long. I want to have someone who makes going home so exciting there doesn't seem to be a reason to stay away. I want someone to see me in such a unfiltered light I never turn away. I want I want I want. So many wants ! But I don't think this want is too selfish- because I want to be that for the other person too.

Timing is part of love and life and all the in between pieces. It's short and long and silly but lovely. I cannot help but think if timing was good enough to get us here, together, that's where we should stay.

We? Who's we? You, me- someone take control and steer me to the end! We don't have to be forever, because time is never promised, but I want you here, so let's stay for now and not talk about then.