I'm reading the news, and I am feeling very selfish.

I didn't finish ranger school

I didn't even get started

I don't think I'll have the opportunity to go back soon

I'm rebuilding my fitness program regardless

And I don't really want to leave America.

Not right now.

But I like to think of myself as adventurous!

Yes, that's the word

Capable? ready?

I feel so less so lately

There's so much going on

And I'm worried about my non-existent ranger experience?

It feels so shallow

When convoys open fire

I am worried I will forget everything I learned

And remember I don't actually know how to do my job

yet

There doesn't seem to be a lot of room for error

But apparently that's built in for LTs

yay

A small reprieve

So Ill probably run to the coffee shop in the plains tomorrow

A final $7 oatmilk latte

I get oatmilk even though I like cow milk

Its not better for you

Less lactate sure

but I'm convinced that doesn't affect me

Oatmilk has the same amount of calories

Usually $1.00 more expensive too

But its better for the earth

And at this point

That gives me a little hope :)