this is mostly for michele, some for me

i want to be 100% in on my next goals. i am. I have a lot. Here’s a clearing for the books. my head lingers on you. Pretty soon I’ll fly past, your memory like an old favorite song. But that’s just it- you’ll be old. Moved on and carried away. Not because I didn’t try. Oh, god. I tried, ok. For months, too. does an appropriate length of effort exist in this world? the more I tried, the more you pushed away. I guess it wasn’t a push as much of a fade. Don’t you see everything I see in you! Do you see that in me? Of course you don’t. There couldn’t be a way that you could and still treat some one who cares, so deeply, for you in that way. So I’ll keep my sunsets and new music to myself. I’m going a couple steps back. This is hard when you crave forward motion like me. I know hard is OK. Maybe we’ll grow together, one day. I just really wanted us to be sooner than this one day.