tuesday

I am running and crying and laying down in my bed and feeling very separate. I want to care about more things and I want to be able to stop this selfish rotation that keeps spinning in my head. I'm not sure I can break it until I figure myself out. I don't want to rely on someone else to pull me out of this but I don't know if I can do it myself. It makes me want to drink six cups of coffee and live in the moment between falling asleep and waking up. I want to get lost, but I only want to get lost to be found five minutes later. Like the keys you forgot to put by your door! I think I feel too much and I need to just do my job. It's not hard. I'm just craving time alone driving in my car and singing and crying to songs that push me to tears on the way home.

Lonely love song by St. Paul & The Broke Bones