years

2 years ago I felt light and bubbly and warm and loved

1 year ago I felt lost and angry and anxious and quite a bit desperate

Today I felt hopeful, somewhat remembered, somewhat forgotten, but ok.

A year from now I hope I feel light and bubbly and warm and loved

I'm ok with wishing for these circular feelings as the path to get there is a dizzying patchwork of highs and lows and looking back and laughing at how it's all actually silly. I am working on grounding and getting out of the ME vernacular.

I just would like to listen to my favorite songs and ride my bike in big circles with my friends under a summer sunset and eat a big fat salad afterwards.