You know those robotic days that don't necessarily feel productive, but don't quite feel like a waste... Today's myriad of meetings & mini requirements weren't too much, but somehow I am still up at 1208, wishing I had gone to sleep at 9pm. However, over the last 2 months, i can't imagine spending any more time on 'school' than out and connecting to true, real life, in your face, people. Ok, so I said the last 2 months, but I really love the idea of maintaining this need for nurture and contact for the rest of my life.
This day reminded of kb's recommendation: This Is Water by DFW. A deceptively simple message. At some point, we're all caught in the storm of the circadian tragedy of living each and every day the same. However, when we make the choice to look past these surface inadequacies, we can discover the miracle of life through everyday living. My favorite part about the speech showed me that we can find pockets of time anywhere, and "the only ting that is Capital T-True is that you get to decide how you're going to see it"
We get to decide! we, we, we... always trying to steer this focus away from me. Despite the utter self-centeredness, we are allowed to enter each day with a little extra: spice/pep/excitement/commitment/elation. This choice makes me want to do something different, be different. But to my case and point, while this may be true, all i can think about is what's for breakfast.
"Almost everything that matters is difficult, and everything matters" Letter Four by Rainer Maria Rilke.
Kb representing!! I am honored