How does my notes on my phone know when I hate myself, and I want to write about it. I feel disgusting and alone. I know I'll be sad while reading these notes sober, but its how I feel right now.
I don't feel tied down. I feel all loose. Like there's no on to hold on to me. What do you do when everything and everyone has moved on but you. Don't you feel left behind. Aren't' you forgotten. I don't think these thoughts are necessarily bad-- maybe just a part of life. Maybe thinking people need you more than they actually do. Maybe its realizing you need yourself to stand up, to think, to be. Who knew existing could be this hard. Do you ever think who can I go for this and arrive at no one. Maybe this our sign to turn inwards, despite our constant and ever-growing resistance to ourselves.
“What goes on inside is just too fast and huge and all interconnected for words to do more than barely sketch the outlines of at most one tiny little part of it at any given instant” - DFW